3 months after finishing the blog - where am I today, teetotaler or boozer?
I stopped counting the days and I stopped keeping a blog of my progress back in May. I no longer wanted my attempts to stop drinking to dominate my life and my thinking anymore. How was I to know that that was in fact the final piece of the jigsaw! Week and weekend after week and weekend now passes by without a drop. But now, not by actively resisting and forcing myself not to drink, nor by fighting off any cravings and worrying about the number of dry days as I used to, but simply due to a process of natural progression. I still visit pubs and restaurants and socialise, but I now automatically turn to softies when I go out, and I feel absolutely no desire to drink alcohol at home either. It's now an in-built, reflex reaction. It feels very different. I do not feel like I am missing out like before. I suppose my brain has evolved - it just isn't worth going down that road anymore! The scales have tipped and the triggers are now identified and understood - s...